camp group 2

looks like last week.

just more boys.

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i am in way over my head right now. i would say this is a big deal, except it isn't. it's pretty much the status quo when it comes to my life. so i guess i should rephrase. i'm not in over my head - i'm running at complete and utter capacity, no wiggle room. i thrive in these inhospitable conditions, but i can also admit, at times they worry me.

a large and unexpectedly early check came today though - a relief. i spent the night buried in math once again - statistics this time.

i just add and add and add things until i'm just not capable of a single thing more. this allows me to be one of the most productive people i know without question, but i do fear that there may be a breaking point. hopefully i am capable of detecting it (there is a lovely lady named leah laughing somewhere - remember that week i had that horrible swine flu or whatever and i refused to stop doing ANYTHING?).

i am about to embark into some interesting uncharted territory. back to academia where i first cultivated this ability to do so very, very much. and then the ride taught me to slow down, savor the little things. hard to balance the two when i am deadset on getting the most out of UT this time around.

i guess the positive side is i'm actually looking forward to it. when i talked to the lady in the college of natural sciences earlier this week she didn't even give me a hard time about the odd all-over-the-place nature of my multiple(?) degree paths.

even though i am just trying to take some additional classes, i had to be readmitted to the undergraduate school again alongside my graduate studies. because i went to UT the first time around and got a degree, i'm getting readmitted to my old college. so i called the college of natural sciences to transfer.

but i need to admit something. it felt so deliciously good when she asked:

"i know you're non-degree seeking, but you have to claim a major. which one would that be?"

and i got to say "biology."

like i'd just gotten away with having my cake and eating it too - with doing something i was never supposed to be able to have a second chance at.

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p.s. i love my blip yesterday.