I have been contacted by a woman who wants me to take her and her siblings portrait. A gift to their father who turn 50 soon. I cannot believe it, it must be a dream. Some of my thoughts underneath is about this. Am i ready? Can i use my feelings when it comes to people i dont know. Can I direct 4 people to get a good portrait? One in color of them all, a little more serious then two in B/W with them more relaxed and fun. Am i good enough? Do i know my camera enough? Can i read the light enough? Oh my goodness, what have I got my self in to.

Home, alone. Deep thoughts running thru my mind. Where am i in life? Why do i always have to think so much? Ok, i am a dreamer, I am a thinker but why always so deep? I misunderstand my own thoughts at times as well.


So please be careful with me, I'm sensitive
And I'd like to stay that way. (Jewel).

Well, my heart has spoken and i do feel better by only air my thoughts. Tonight i will cuddle up in my own loneliness and feed my self with love, my own love that only belong to me.

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