Out with the Old

Today was the kind of day that made me realize I am actually an adult now. The time has come in my life where I am the one giving directions to my parents instead of vice versa. I am quite sure that I do not like it a little bit. It is scary to watch my Dad deteriorate slowly. Mom is in complete denial. To her, he isn't that sick. He isn't exhibiting signs of early Alzheimer's. His sugar isn't that high.

After I left their house, I took the really long way home, stopping at places that looked like it could be a good blip opportunity. I was looking for something perfect. Something that would encompass the way I was feeling. In reality, I think I was looking for my younger Dad. The Dad who told me what to do and how not to completely screw up my life. I was looking for something that no longer existed. Time passes. We grow older. Our parents will die. It is life. All part of the journey. I want to stop time. Or at least stop the biological clock that is ticking away the moments of my parents' life.

This picture is of an abandoned house near an intersection that will soon become another housing development or shopping center. It looks like it was once a grand old house. Home to a large farming family. It sits empty and decrepit now, a sign of time passing. It was one of several shots I took today. All were in black in white since it was a gray sort of day. This one best represents today for me - out with the old, in with the new.