Trying too hard?

Probably.

But no matter how much I try, I know that I will never matter as much as she does
So selfish of me, but it's true
I'm jealous of her.
And it's absolutely ridiculous.
And makes me an absolutely horrible person.

So many mixed signals
So frustrating
And it leaves me thinking that maybe I should just go back to him
There's nothing here for me anyway

So I'm done calling you for plans
Waiting for hours with my hair and makeup done for my phone to ring
Pathetic

You give me a call when you have time.
If you ever do.