Bananas

Bought some bananas today in an attempt to be slightly healthier.

Even though I felt pretty dreadful I kept my appointment with my "job" lady. We spent a good 2 hours talking things through and I felt much better and clearer in my mind, although I was utterly exhausted when I got home.

There are still many decisions to be made about where to go from here, but at least I now know what the questions are, even if the answers are not yet apparent.

Despite being told to regard what I've done so far as a huge achievement, I still feel disappointed that I'm nowhere near well enough to go back to full-time work at a "proper" job.

Too ill, too broken, too exhausted.

Oh dear.