Brain Blur

I write things down to help me keep my life simple. I am not a friend to chaos, although I love excitement and adventure, almost to the point of addiction. but chaos is a different story, and that just throws me into a land of extreme agitation.

I love order, and I love the realization that we have so much control in our lives. I guess that's one of the big things I realized through all of the changes, I can't control others, but I can definitely control myself and my immediate environment, and that continues to feel amazing!!! I am so regularly genuinely happy, and it isn't because of a boy. It's because I'm happy with myself and my choices. I'm happy with my life.

This is a foreign concept to me... Well, at least it was. This thought that happiness doesn't come from another person but instead from inside. This idea that we are capable of so much... I've accomplished more than I ever knew I could, and yet I keep wanting more because now I see that the limits are self imposed. But I digress.

Today I became agitated because chaos came into my world, a little bit. It throws me off, and it creates a challenge that I did not expect. I welcome the circumstances that brought the chaos, and so now it is up to me as to how I perceive the situation. After a discussion, the chaos was greatly improved, and that helped a lot, so now we roll forward!

I will try to be patient and loving and kind, and that should be fairly easy if I focus on the blessings asleep under my roof and not the make-up smudges on the towel. Kinda easy when you look at it from the right angle.

Sorry for yelling, girls. :)

5 things I'm grateful for today
1) three darling daughters
2) a cleanish house
3) dinner made, good company, help around the house, laughter, respect, love!
4) work completed on time
5) my new iPhone :)