manipulated...

...just like my thoughts...

I usually don't heavily alter photos, but in this case I felt the desire to change it a good deal.

I'm really feel down right now...for more than one reason...a great deal of it stems from my father telling me that I'm a failure...that I wasn't good enough in college to actually get a job in engineering...that I'm a failure for working in tech support...

I had a good day at the office...and it was exciting...but I feel horrible now...I know negative thinking is far from beneficial, but I can't help to take it to heart...I'm just not good enough...not to be a mechanical engineer...not to be remotely intelligent or successful in my fathers eyes...not good enough to not be used and thrown away...

I'm sure I'll feel better in the morning...