Less than perfect

Its funny how some songs just speak to you. It's like someone is watching you. Quite a few songs by Pink have had this effect on me and she's made one more: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LdW5rei_5gI&feature=related.
I think quite a few people have felt less than perfect once or twice!
It got me thinking though. About once a week I call a halt on chocolate, sweets, bread, crisps, breathing air that looks heavy. I do it in my head lying in bed at night; "Tomorrow is the start of the diet, I will loose weight and look fabulous". Sadly I have a love for all the things I tell myself I'm having no more of. :) There is always next week!
I am reminded of yet another song that speaks to me. It was sung by Bruce Springsteen first but Amy Mcdonald sings it really well.
There is a line in it that goes: "I check my look in the mirror, wanna change my clothes my hair my face."
I've felt like this for quite a large chunk of my life. I wish I had different hair, face, body, eyes, nose....the list goes on. I used to be a bit goth and a little mosher. I used to wear the weidest of things. Pink fishnets, ripped up tops, chains, studded collers and peircings!! Oh there were peircings!! I liked it cause although I made my self a target to every school bully around my misfit friends were all the same as me. Oh we thought we were soo cool. I used to feel big then too, however after finding a skirt I used to wear ALOT in the back of my wardrobe I obviously was not covering myself up like I do now!
I'd love to be that crazy again! You never know what you have do you?
Anyway the point of this rambling...if there is one! Is my vow to like myself a little better.
I want to say thank you to everyone for all your words of support for my last post. It's really nice to be heard and understood. And I offer my love and support to all those who said they felt the same. I hear you and I understand! :)