coin

since life is just one throbbing, veiny competition after another, i wanted to go ahead and share with you how much money i found in our change bucket thus far: seven dollars. soon i will be eating filet Mignon and lobster tail while you rot in your gray flat under your gray sky, peasant. i loive the dolce vita and i want you to know it.

i jest and it is so rip-roaringly hilarious, the lot. the bleak truth: i would have bounced my car insurance check had my sister not given me a loan. her repayment was in the mail yesterday. i start my job, part-time and low-paying that it is, on Friday. it will feel good to be a working stiff again (no sarcasm here. this matters). and school in the fall has never been so appealing. can't wait for my acceptance so i can detach better, detach from things so that these Blips, captured early in the morning, loose all sense of sad irony and coincidence. yuk yuk yuk. i'm not laughing anymore, not even at the sheer lunacy of it all.

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later: just noticed the Canadian penny. love that place.

later later: upload finally complete of a video i made today folding my gray blanket.