Eyes Of A Child

Wouldn't it be great if we could all see the world through the eys of a child? Theres a song by Soul Asylum of the same name you should look up. i'm at home so can't link.

It's a short blip (I write this bracketed reference afterwards: turns out its not so short) today low on laughs (that bit is true) and high on me being somewhat reflective. You may or may not believe me when I state the following: there are aspects to my lifestyle that I haven't revealed on here. I do always have the ability to be candid and open, but there is perhaps one thing I can't bring myself to talk about.

Last night that aspect of my personality reappeared which has led to a shocking day for me. there is one solitary blipper who is aware of what I do/did and I thank her for just not judging. I fight battles most days and last night I gave a little wave of the white flag and allowed the self destruct button to be pressed. Whilst I don't invite guesses or anything (so don't.you've been asked!!) every so often I just reach for the big red button marked 'escape' and hit it as hard as I can.

I'm not being melodramatic or anything, nor am I sinking back to the slightly tapped individual that occasionally rears his head on here. However I wantto be as open as I believe I can be with you people. The reason? Blip is a constant source of comfort, encouragement and positivity for me. Yesterday for instance, nearly 250 views, 50 odd comments and 3 favourites: its simply gobsmacking that my average photography and constant moaning can attract such a fantastic response from genuinely good people. I don't want to become a sycophant or to put it in my language 'arse licker' but sincerely you guys are amazing. I awoke this morning to a message from RtCph (not been able to reply thanks to a wank internet connection) which was such a massive boost for me. I awoke to a text message from another blipper and before I hit the sack Id had constant support through my destructive evening from yet another blipper. I can honestly say (and I mean honest as in properly honest, not politician honest) that if I were to pick my best decision of the last twelve months, it would be joining blip.

Life is tough, everyone on here has demons to battle, axes to grind and skeletons in the closest. 99% of the time I'm happy to bare all to you, share things I don't share with family and friends with whom I socialise regularly. On this one occasion I can't. However on the other 99 occasions I have found solace, support, encouragement and inspiration from a lot of people I know simply by their usernames. Thank you.

For those who may be inquisitive about my demon I can confirm the following: I am still cannabis free, I've never hurt anyone else, I didn't eat a kitten or anything and I definitely did not sit and watch Britains Got Talent. I hope that will allow you to rest easy.

Rugby 7's in London tomorrow, Twickenham. Got to get up at 5am and haven't slept since Thursday night so best get my sorry ass upstairs to my pit. Night y'all.