Pretending

Feeling sad today and thought blipping might help get it off my chest. It's been over a month since I've been broken up with my boyfriend of nearly two years, let's call him M for talkings sake. It's getting harder everyday when I thought by now, it would start to get easier.

This is a folder I made as we were together. We were always at the cinema and I kept the cinema tickets in my purse out of habit. About 3 months into the relationship, I started sticking all of our old tickets into the folder. Thought it would be nice to look back on one day...

Turns out the folder is just a reminder of M and hurts along with all the photos, bears and various other reminders of him dotted about my room. To my dad and the rest of my family, I'm coping fine, spending time with my friends and moving on. I'm not. I'm pretending. It's times like this i wish various social networking sites didn't exist either. I reckon it would make it easier. I could at least pretend he still wanted me and was hung up as much as i am. Maybe it's time to de-friend, burn the folder and bin the photos.

I just don't want to.