Beyond a Shadow of a Doubt

The hardest lesson I've ever had to learn was that of uncertainty.

As a child I fell in love with picture-taking because of the ability to freeze time and make that scene an absolute. But when that adolescent crisis came about my interests turned to moving pictures--the ability to change perspectives.

Still, years later, I'm struggling with changing that perspective of absolutes. In math, absolutes only exist under static circumstances. Life isn't static. I shouldn't be static.


My blips lately have been horrible, and for that I feel ashamed. In my opinion this isn't about running around the house at quarter to midnight trying to find something with enough light on it.

I'm moving. My new job starts on Wednesday, but I'm not entirely sure what it is. I need to be there by 8:3a, but I don't yet have anywhere to live. I don't know how to get around town and I don't know my way around the mountain much better. I don't have any friends there, and I don't know how I'll spend my downtime. I don't even know why the hell I'm doing this, but what I do know is that I've always wanted to. Sometime, though, I expect to learn a thing or two and get a clearer understanding of where I should go next. If not at least I'll have accomplished something I've always wanted, but never thought feasible.

Usually I would get upset that this shot shows the trees and roof behind the pile, but today I rather like it.