Thank you all for your comments on yesterdays blip.
They were appreciated :)

But whatever feelings of dispair/pain/and so on you got from it...they were just for the blip.No worries.
I'm not sad at all.
I actually love my life right now.Haha.
I get to play lacrosse again (which definetely makes me the happiest girl all over germany!!)

Only one thing missing.
but hey...good things come to those that wait :)