Just a reflection

The truth, the truth is hard to bear.
(the truth is I lost myself somewhere amid the pain)
I feel like a reflection of who I once was, duller, less colorful.
(I don't have any answers, don't ask. I don't know)
In trying to protect you I hurt you, in trying to be honest I pushed you away.
(I'm a reflection in a window of the girl you once knew)
Maybe it's easier to hide in my shell, no love lost, no love found.
(I'm afraid for you to see the pain, you and the creator)
Love is giving yourself away, but I think I forgot to take what another was giving.
(It's always been my own, and once again I find I long to hide behind its cool masked exterior.)
No one gets through, no one hurts me. I am strong, I am cold.
I am pain.