Rose

My sister bought me this for my birthday quite some time ago... the idea is that you put it in a certain corner of your bedroom in a particular orientation and it attracts a loving partner into your life. Do I sound skeptical? well, it hasn't worked anyway. A lot of the time I'm quite happy being single... and I'm not sure I have the time to fit someone else into my life (so many things to do!)... at other times I feel lonely and wish I had a companion. Babs said to me the other day that she could see me having a wedding and that she could also see me holding a baby! crikes! She also said that I can't wait for a girl to turn up, I have to go and find her... I've always been of the opinion that if you just get on with life doing the things you like to do then you'll find someone... usually when you're least expecting it... but maybe I'm wrong.
Of the girls I have met, theres either something I don't quite click with... or they don't seem interested or like I've put them off... I have no idea how I'm supposed to act... in fact I don't like acting and just tend to be myself... everything I say has no hidden meaning and I say whatever comes into my head. I kinda figure that if she doesn't like me for who I am then thats that.

I see lots of people pairing up and sometimes wonder if it's me... or am I just being too fussy? maybe I'm 'looking' (for want of a better word) for someone who doesn't exist.

Maybe I'm too 'different'... I went to a Steiner school and was home educated for a while. Did my degree partly to shut people up who were saying I was uneducated or stupid. I'm a figure skater/coach. I like playing with trains. I like mucking about and generally being daft (I'll still chuck myself down a snowy hillside or go out and photograph a cuddly toy sheep that a friend has chucked in the air). I'd rather stay in in the evenings and watch a film/read a book/work on some project or other than go out clubbing. I love the countryside. I'm vegetarian, I hardly ever drink (I can have plenty of fun without the need for alcohol and I rather like to remember having 'fun'), I never smoke and I can't dance to save my life. hmmmm... maybe I am weird... but thats me.

Anyway... theres an insight into my thoughts... I don't normally share my personal thoughts in this way... for lots of reasons and I'm not entirely sure about publishing this.. but maybe it's a good thing for me to do something I wouldn't normally do.