Half & half

I like how this tree seems to be half dying & half living, the front is all performing how a tree should, but at the back & the bit people don't really see is struggling to cope with life.

I can surely understand how it feels, I often feel the same. On the surface & my 'front' I'm mr successful, good management job at a young age, on the property ladder already, cheery guy who people come to for advice. Yet what people don't see is the weak parts I don't want them to see. The lack of confidence in my job role, my financial hardships, my lack of confidence in any aspect of my life, my non existent love life, the fact I'm in my mid twenties & never been in a committed relationship.

I wish I was strong enough to let the world see my vulnerabilities. I'm just not, I have many close friends who often confide in me, but as they see me as their 'guide' I don't know how they will react when they realise I'm not the well rounded guy they think I am.

My life isn't as normal as it seems others can be, I wish I could be the well adjusted person people view me as & hold me in such high regard for being. It doesn't help that I'm quite loud as a person, people often mistake that for confidence, but I can tell you it isn't.

This blip has turned out quite emotional, especially considering it was just going to be a picture of an ice cream at one point!