Your Brilliance

What i would give to have
some of your brilliance
it makes me sick and green
caught in this horrible dance

in your brilliance
the world fell to the ground
it was smothered in dirt
and there was not a sound

in your brilliance
you let the world go
and fell to you knees
you were lower than low

What i would give to have
some of your brilliance
it makes me roll on the floor
knowing that i can't have a chance

In your brilliance
i was thrown to the floor
I can't say anything
not a word more

Because i'm scared of your brilliance
it haunts me in my dreams
that your brilliance is the one thing i hate
and just thinking about it gives me steams

This feeling inside me, has long been gone
and it is finally back again
a burning of my soul and a quenching of more fire
they say the sword never beats the pen

cause i've tried swatting the sword
in every which direction, and nothing ever replies
but each time that faithful pen hits the paper
every inch, every part of me cries

yet i yearn for me, what is wrong
is there nothing more i can take
but inside i fear a dangerous lion
that can strike whenever it smells steak

What i would give to have
some of your brilliance
to harness your anger
and be able to advance

In your brilliance
you fell in love
you were waiting for the right one
and you fell in love with a shlub

In my brilliance
i turned you down
and now i'm alone
and i wear the dunce crown

I thought i was happyer
for what is happiness
without the comfort in love
but will you ever find happyness

I don't know