Day twenty-three: it won't always be this way ...

So, today was a bit of a bummer. Saw my ex with his new girlfriend at a work function. I stayed there for 30 minutes. I felt the tears well up as I watched them sitting next and whispering to each other, so I snuck out the back quietly.

And came downstairs. And cried. One of my dear friends came out and gave me a hug, made me laugh, and I composed myself enough to get through the day.

Tonight in the shower, I started to weep again. I found myself chanting "it won't always be this way. It won't always be this way. It won't always be this way..." I just wept and allowed myself to feel this way.

I got out of the shower and looked at my eyes. They were so brilliantly green. I just let the tears flow. Something bubbled up in me today and I want to get it all out. That is part of my journey to wholeness - honesty.

I thought that I might take some pics of me, because, I know, it will not always be this way. This is a pretty darn honest blip. You can see it all in my eyes and in the tears on my face.

I know that I will look back at this pic and feel differently ... even a couple days from now. Life is dynamic. It won't always feel this way. Thankfully.