You cant have the key

I'm truly sorry for being so selfish, especially these few days

I dont want this to carry on...
We will just fall deeper and deeper into this black hole
And one day, sucked into it totally
with no escape,
only eternal darkness,
not a single ray of light ahead

I've decided, without consulting you
Sooner or later, this have to be done

And I understood that we cant afford to drag. We really cant.