A Welcome Return

I've already written this post once but I think it timed out on me.

Anyway. It's been a while since I've been on blipfoto and I'm not sure why I've returned.

I'm in a totally different place in my life at the moment - living down in London, working for a production company and with a girlfriend (the girl in the photo) of 6 months. However all is not rosy. I feel really frustrated creatively and (at times) very alone. I'm beginning to wonder whether the sort of life I've dreamed about since the age of 11 is actually what I want after all and that scares me. I miss, and really need now, the relative anonymity of the blipfoto community to act as a sounding board and to share some of my work with. Even if no one sees it or responds to it, at least it's out there.

I feel like a bit of a fraud demanding all of this stuff from a community that I abandoned over a year ago but at least I'm being honest about it.

I was debating trying to set up a new account and start all over from scratch but I realised that was utterly pointless. I can no more remove my past than I can control the future. It is a part of me, it has shaped me and it is, therefore, important to me.

What I have done is turned over a new leaf. This is me. This is where I am now and I intend to submit a photo a day from now on. I want to get better at taking photos as well and I really want to learn from those people on here who I admired in the past and who I continue to admire.

So I offer up for your judgement this photo of my girlfriend. It was taken in the early hours of the morning in a friends studio. She has gone away modeling "oop North" but when she comes back next Thursday she will be living with me for four months. A bit scary but also very exciting.

I'm sure she will feature more than once over the summer and I'll let you know a little bit more about her as and when...