Holding on...

"Memory is a way of holding on to the things you love, the things you are, the things you never want to lose." - Kevin Arnold


Hi blip.

It's been awhile...a VERY long while. Been so caught up with the business I have lost my spark, my fire, my passion, my creativity. My muse has left me and I have been at a complete loss for work. It weighs heavy on my heart everyday. I wake up with this sinking feeling, knowing that I am pushing and pushing and yet have no desire to push forward at all. It's been rough. Handling the business side of things has definitely worn me out and has completely left my artist in the dark, lost, seeking an exit, a light switch, just something to bring me back from this black hole.

Of course I am aware that I can't be the only one to feel this way, or who has lost their creative flame, things get in the way sometimes. I guess the part which breaks my heart is that I don't know how to do anything else except create. Produce. Do. When all you know how to do leaves you...what happens? I force work out and it doesn't feel the same. I participated in an art exhibit recently and had to throw together a couple of pieces last minute due to some technical difficulties concerning a film I was supposed to showcase, and I found myself returning to my roots...painting, polaroids, typewriters...things I can touch. Just so I could feel it.

So, here we are. A new blip. Perhaps a portrayal of what I feel these days...

I've missed you.

Have a beautiful day.