unexpected

a knock at the door - how nice. i know it's because she's not there and you're at a loose end, and i also know you wouldn't admit that was the case even if i applied thumbscrews. but still, nice to see you. nice to know that, even if the timing is entirely on your terms and i get no say in things whatsoever, we can be friends who are friendly when we spend time. i wish only that you would keep your half of the bargain: be friendly, spend a little time & in return i back off more - i only step forward because you step back; stepping back makes me step forward all the more. yes, my bad, but again, also your bad. vicious bloody circle.