Bubble envelopes

I finally finished my 2 job applications. There is something rather perilous in the act of putting onto a few pages something that will be considered and evaluated and could determine the next 30-something years of my life.

But I did. Because this is the life I want. Because I've worked really hard to get those few pages to send. Because I know this is what I'm supposed to be doing with my life. Now, the wait.

Afterwards, the stress came up. It's a good thing I spent almost 2 hours with a 5-week baby: nothing calms me more than this, the simplicity of keeping a baby calm and comfortable, reacting to her dreams, smiling when she actually laughs in her sleep, patting her back when she is disturbed. After that, after what always seems like a wonderful gift of life, I came home, zenified. Ready. For the wait, and the answers.