Today I started my camera fund.

I've been meditating, working on my breathing, and pushing those anxious and depressing thoughts out of my head. I don't really know what i'm doing necessarily, but my aim it find a center, especially when I feel an anxiety attack, anger, or self consciousness setting in.

Today, I am thankful for riding my bike, my job, attending classes I actually enjoy, my own room, warm jackets, my health, my friends, the goodness of God, technology that allows me to talk to H, to be a woman, string instruments, a warm shower to rid my bones of the cold, my singleness. I will slip into those sheets full of today's blessings, and dream a beautiful dream and you and I Of what could be, of what might be, of what I hope for. Habibi, I hope tonight you're not too far away from me.