Too tired to cook

Another difficult day with mum. Couldn't get her to do much. Just about managed to get her clothes changed from nightie to daywear.
She told me arrogantly which was never her way at all, to go and get on with my work elsewhere.

Considering how much I do and how tired I am she really does push my buttons. I had to leave the room and go and have a rant and even a scream in the kitchen.

When I'd calmed down I returned and bumped into her on her way to the living room door. She was coming to see who had screamed. I didn't know she could hear me.

I honestly don't do that often at all. When I have it strains my throat for days after. It's just a safe way of releasing my frustration.

Had another invoice from the council for the transport services. I've already told them once that mum isn't going to day care and hasn't gone since she came out of hospital. Last time I phoned to tell them they took all the dates off me and said they'd have to check with the hospital. What for I really didn't know. If I say she's not been using transport facilities why not just accept my word.

Anyway I had to phone yet again. They didn't mention having to ring the hospital or having done it or not done it the last time but said they would put the invoice on hold for two months in which time I should contact social services to say I no longer want any transport.

I told him that I don't want to burn my boats and would like to keep the option open but he was programmed only to know his own limits and couldn't think outside of his own crate.

So tonight I ordered Pizza for mum and I . She was about to refuse taking any food until she saw it and her stomach over-ruled her beligerence.