Peruvian/Italian

Me. I'm 46 and with age I've learned the love of life. It hasn't been easy at times but I've always tried to remain optimistic. I lost my mother almost 2 years ago and my father last month so I guess you can call me an Orphan. It does feel different not having at least one of your parents alive. I miss my mother calling me "Erikita". I miss her voice (more about Mom another time). My father's death brought up a lot of unexpected emotions and hunger for answers. I'm working on them. As far as I can remember I've always been searchin for something. An answer, understanding, unconditional love.

I look back at my life and I've chosen not to regret anything. My marriage of 21 years even though it wasn't my liking gave me 3 beautiful children. I had to go thru that marriage to become who I am today. I'm proud to say I have forgiven and have asked for forgiveness. That gave me freedom. True freedom (like the divorce but even better).

I'm also proud to say I've been in love (twice). Never thought I was going to fall in love and when I did it was scary as hell. My first love held my hand thru it with patience and understanding but he wasn't the one. My second love. WOW! He gave me so much more. Spirituality, acceptance, acknowledgement, compassion, passion (oh my), nurturing and laughter are just a few that I experienced with this man. What I do know is that if I die today, I will die with a smile because I have truly loved and have been loved back.

My life right now is in a good place. I'm still learning about myself and I'm sure that will continue. I'm new and improved with a new found confidence and faith in myself. Oh sure I still have self doubt but that's part of being a woman.

Huge reason why I decided to join Blipfoto is for the journaling (very therapeutic) and the anticipation one year from now to be able to go back and reflect. It's also something to leave behind for my babies and siblings.

Thank you,
Erika