Awkward belated birthday lunch with my family. Its terrible that I can't be around my parents for too long without wanting to completely rip my hair out. The idea of moving back home for the summer is completely out of the question- I forgot how insane and hateful my mom and dad are towards each other.

Enough of that, back up to Foco for work where I developed a headache. Darn energy drinks and loud music.

Also, If I'm speaking from the deepest most sincere part of my heart- I miss Dylan. Ugh... I need these dreams to stop so I can stop thinking about him. I need to heal from this still. I had a serious 2 hours worth of thinking and praying about what it would be like having to open up to someone again. The thought terrified me, moreover I was plagued with pessimism thinking there might never be another man that pursues my heart again... I'm traumatized from how devastating my past relationship worked out. It probably doesn't help that I involved myself with a plethora of shallow guys who didnt give a shit about me.

I don't want to end up alone. I don't want to end up like my parents.