Embrace the chaos!

Oh, I wish I could...

I've been wondering today why I've taken on so much recently.
I can't ever seem to find any sort of equilibrium. If I'm not hectic I find something to fill the tiny spaces and if I am hectic I wish I was more relaxed.

The crazy thing is I actually hate chaos. I wish I didn't though. I wish I could cope with lots of noise and multi-tasking but I'm really really bad at coping.

The result is stress, headaches and jitters on a regular basis.

If I ever find out how to de-stress and/or embrace the chaos I will be a very happy person.

Today's been one of those days where you think you're doing something and then you're not and then you're doing something else and then you're not doing that either. I'm not sure whether anything has come full circle today or if I've created lots of concentric circles.

I lay on the floor and concentrated on deep breathing about an hour ago to try to eleviate the fluttery feeling and then looked at this photo from our walk up the hill this evening. I have a little series of about 15 photos of this ladybird pootling about on the nettles and the simplicity is quite calming.
I'm so grateful that nature, sunlight and camera made my job easy for me tonight. I like all 15 photos, so chose the middle one.