I try so hard to feel
And live so small, wishing to heal
All I want is here in you now
All I need is here in you today

The rivers of pain still flow
And Im asking my memories,
please, don't go
But they swim away
without looking back
This shows me exactly what I lack

In the act of loving I seek healing
I fear that I'm alone in this feeling
I love, praying it will heal me
my fragile, scarred heart

When the love is at a stand still
And the look is one that could kill
My trigger screams loud
And I find myself in a cloud
Smoke fills the air for far too long
And my breath is no longer strong
But weak and corrupted

The chemicals fill my lungs
I breathe like one who is not here
Find me somewhere unclear
I lose myself in smoke again
And when I wake, I can't breathe