Broken

Sometimes it is very shocking how easy it is for things to change. Just one false step, one pause and one detour make you end up with difficult life, bad reputation and so on. It never happened to me before, and I've never been able to see it to myself. It makes me feel like maybe all of these predictable difficulties had been waiting to occur underneath of thousands of layers. Now I'm left with words that I should've said but never did......and still haven't. And my heart is heavy with confusion.
Sorry...I know it's very depressing. It's very warm and beautiful outside today. I love spring in Japan.