day of reckoning

So today has been horrible, my manager was on my case all day, and all hopes of a love interest have been killed, i finally decided i would end something before it began.

How is it some people are so blind to what they started and eventually crushing them without apparently ever knowing? Their actions which they think are innocent playing straight into your mind and ripping it to shreds, this is how ive been feeling for the last 24 hours, ive been here before, and promised myself i would never go back to those dark days, im trying to keep myself perked up, but it seems to be not working, but writing it here goes somewhere to ease the pain.

I suppose the lesson to learn in life is only open up your trust to someone you know deserves it, and if they will admit lying, cheating, or in general being nasty to their fellow peoples, have nothing to do with them, i guess with me, third time lucky hopefully, oooo get me having a tear whilst writing this, by no means its the person thats making me cry, its their actions, and the feelings of when my heart was last broken, im getting that feeling becomming a priest isnt such a bad idea after all!