one year on

One year ago today I was in hospital in intensive care fighting for my life. I came so close to dying that it scares me to think about even though it is 12 months on. Although I am still receiving treatment for the psychological trauma of it all (it really was a horrendous experience), I have also come a long way too.

Coming so close to death can teach you many lessons, not the least is of course 'carpe diem' but that would be to over-simplify things. My brush with death and having to live with the knowledge that the cancer is gone for now but probably not gone for good, has taught me many things. Things about myself and about those around me. It's certainly made me appreciate the simple joys of a pretty flower, a beautiful sunset, a stunning view.

I may still be having nightmares and flashbacks, I may not have my dance career any more but I am here, I am still standing and that's what counts the most.

I couldn't make up my mind which image to use today this one or this one Both of them represent new beginnings and that's where I see myself one year on.