Empty yet proud

These stables are part of the estate that myself and Scott live on....lady Dundee own the estate and it is very very beautiful.....
I passed this building a few days ago and for some reason have not been able to get the picture out if my head.....I've been here every day for the past 3days and just stand and stare.
If I wanted I could go right into it...it's now a forecourt for horses stables but I don't want to...I like the picture I see right here....it is old and run down yet enchanting and grand, sad and empty but yet happy and inviting like home, ugly and dull but yet beautiful and alluring.....

I'm feeling a little empty and dull tonight.....Scott works in Glasgow Tuesday to Saturday and stays down there, he leaves at 6am tomorrow morning and that's him gone till late Saturday....ironically, I'm in Aberdeen on Saturday so I won't see him until Sunday night....
I'm sad he has to leave me, it's not fair...why has life got so many challenges and obstacles for us to face?????..
Anyway, so I'm looking at this picture and I have so many thoughts...I wonder how he sees me, I wonder what exactly he sees IN me.....
Am i beautiful and alluring, enchanting and grand, beautiful and inviting, like coming home, or does he see me as dull, sad, ugly and empty......
Hmmmm.....I know the latter is how I feel....:-(

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder, it is only skin deep and it can be bought, it means nothing......it is what YOU see, what YOU believe, what turns YOU on, and what YOU hold dear.........

I will go to bed and hold my man, my love, and in the morning I will be strong, for Tis only a breath, a blink, a casual toss of the hair, till we are again one......x