Bokeh, Red and White

It's funny how your mind works sometimes, when it's trying to reconcile the irreconcilable. 

On any given day I can pretty much tell you exactly how long it's been since we lost our Jessi.  Today it's been 3 years, 1 month, 8 days.  But I really had to think about how many Christmas' we've now spent without her.  Four. Is that even possible?  Four?!?  I still haven't wrapped my head around it. I actually had to look at a calendar. And count. 

2011. 2012. 2013. 2014. Four.

Jessica always decorated her Christmas tree in red and white lights. I had always used only white, but now I decorate our tree with red and white lights, too, in her honor and memory. 

So, it's Bokeh, Red and White. 

For Jessica.