View from Chinnor Hill, Oxfordshire

I had an appointment at the Chinnor Branch of our Doctors Surgery this morning, it is just over the County Boundary into Oxfordshire and sits below the Chiltern Escarpment.  I took Ted with me and we walked for about 2 hours, very muddy and we did get a bit damp but it was good and I was pleased I managed a couple of steep climbs without too much breathlessness!  

My appointment went ok, lots of questions answered but more left unanswered. I have been offered counselling and anti-depressants to help me through this patch of anxiety and stress, I've not taken up the offer of either at the moment.  Going through all the treatments of the past 8 months have been tough at times but it was a case of head down, grit teeth and battle on.  With no more treatment but so much uncertainty and anxiety I am finding it hard, so many what ifs and no guarantees.  My brain is refusing to allow me to plan a future because I'm bloomin' scared of the what if's!  

I start a 'Moving On' course at our local cancer unit next week and I am hoping it will help me manage the anxiety and the uncertainties.