New Growth

I've been looking at my life in the term of seasons. For the last 18 months I think I've probably been in Autumn. I've been releasing things and surrendering them (just as trees lose their leaves and flowers die back). I am aware that mu old way of life is ending (or has come to an end). Now is the time for Winter. Or maybe that was lastlast year when I didn’t do anything in church. Perhaps now is the time for Spring – new possibilities awakening. It’s hard to see them at the moment because I still need some incubation and some restoration. At the moment with all the studying it is difficult to see how new possibilities can be realised, so maybe I am still in Winter: slowly germinating the seeds within me. The earth is dark but it’s fertile. It’s where seeds start the cycle of life. The growth is there but it’s hidden underground. Meanwhile, I need to allow the richness of the soil (the studying, the tutorials, college weekends and experiences at church) to penetrate me to help me to grow strong. I need these nutrients to grow. Water alone is not enough. I need food otherwise I will be weedy and unable to stand or grow. So I must endure the cold and dark and damp and not being able to see the light, but Spring is coming. The light is coming, the warmth is coming. I might feel dormant and half-dead but life is waiting to burst forth.