Kingsnight

I've had a lovely weekend with T. 
It's Kingsday tomorrow, so De Hems have 3 consecutive days of celebrations culminating with the big party on the actual day, Monday night.

In the daytime, I went with T to his rowing club to watch him. I spent the best part of an hour in a pub, then came out to watch the last part :-) We stopped off at Tortilla to have something to eat, and then headed back to his place to get ready.

We met T's friend there and had a great evening. Spirits were high, the Dutch music was in full swing, and everyone was wearing orange. I was having a lovely time, and then guy friend and new girl came in. It had felt a bit awkward when we were here last night, so I knew in my head this was my chance to clear the air. We moved past everything in December, but I was a bit unsure again of where I stood, and just wanted to know that we could come here and for things to not be weird. And I wanted to talk to him.

Unfortunately I didn't tell T I was going to do this, and when he retuned from the bar to find me at the DJ table, he wasn't particularly pleased. Guy friend and I chatted for a few minutes, my little hands shaking with the stress of it. But it made me so happy to see him after a couple of months, and just to know we were ok made me feel so much better. I met his girlfriend and talked to her a little, and it was good. 

But while I felt better, I had inadvertently hurt T's feelings. I would have happily stayed there all night to party, but for this annoying thing called work, so reluctantly we left. It was a bit of a frosty walk back to the station. T and I did talk, and I explained and apologised.

It was a bit strange. I felt 100% better, yet I'm sure T felt just the opposite. He thinks I shouldn't want to be friends with an ex, especially after what happened, but I suppose old woulds run deep. And I know I'm not completely over him yet. 

Fortunately we managed to sort it out, and he has been very understanding. I am a very lucky girl to be with him. He is a very thoughtful and sweet man, and really does care for my feelings. 

Plus he bought me a tube of honey this morning for my porridge, because he knows I don't like it without ;-) What a sweetie ;-)