The day has arrived!

In many ways I have dreaded today arriving which is one of the reasons I started Blipping to remind me of the positives.

Well it has arrived and how do I feel? Hopeful, I think would be the best word. This is the second milestone birthday which I have shared with the Queen's jubilee celebrations. 10 years ago, during the Golden jubilee, I turned 30 and my life couldn't have been more different. In fact, I spent the day alone on Weston Super Mare pier. Not how you would want to spend your 30th. That year I finally found the strength to leave an abusive relationship that was destroying me and start again.

Since then my life has very much been a roller coaster of highs and lows - 'the turbulent thirties' would be appropriate! Therefore, I hope that in ten years time I will look back on my forties and call them the fabulous fearless forties! This is the time to ask myself what is stopping me from truly feeling a sense of inner confidence?

With that I also hope for some balance. I didn't quite master that during the turbulent thirties! I am not quite sure what the balance will look or feel like, I guess that will be part of the learning journey. However I do feel that I will know when I begin to achieve it! If that makes sense!

So today I will celebrate all the positives of the past decade, knowing that had I not found the courage 10 years ago my life would be very different today.

Here's to the fabulous fearless forties!