Spent all of last night with Classic FM on and started using my colouring book. It was lovely, an hour flew past without me realising.
I then went to bed and that's when it all went wrong. I started feeling my body tense up and I got panicky and the horrible feeling inside that I needed to be moving. What I really wanted to do was scream. I paced the flat for a bit , not knowing what to do and how to control the feelings. In the end I ended up self harming for a quick fix and then I took some diazepam. Eventually I got to sleep.

Today has been really hard. Lots of feelings and thoughts changing quickly and its left me feeling exhausted.

Took this as I came out of the park tonight.