this is a rant............

hot hot hot

birthday party this morning In a pub garden.it was really nice and all the children seemed happy with their  face paints and balloons.

hubby treated us all to lunch and took us shopping this afternoon. which was lovely and very unexpected.

ive had an emotional wobble this evening.i do so much for so many people ,and I make sure that family and friends are always remembered on special occasions , and that everyone else is happy. both mine and hubbys family. But for once I wish someone else would take over. first my dads cards didn't arrive. i left messages but he didn't receive them until after the fact. then my father in law didn't get his message as he was away. and hubby didn't give him a card. and whos the one that's left feeling like the baddy.me.

I wish I could just say bollocks to it all and clear off but its not in my nature to do that .i stick around and take it all on my shoulders. and deal with feeling shit and seeing people I love upset.

GGRRRRRRR. I long for a simple life sometimes. a field in the middle of no where, just me and nature.

Apologies for putting all this on here. but needed to vent. 

Any way Tommorow is another day.

hope your all well
:)