Crosswords with friends

So last night was probibly one of the most painful nights yet on these meds. I cried, I tried (and failed) to distract myself, I laid in every position possible and just generally gave up several times.

But I made a goal...that I would go to work everyday I am on these meds. Just work and come home and rest I am limiting what I do outside of work and any plans I do have I am not setting in stone just incase I am having a bad day...like today!

I love my job...the people I work with and the atmosphere. I welcome the distraction it gives me from how generally rubbish I feel at the moment too.

I especially loved that as my appetite was pretty much non existent today and my anxiety was through the roof. That upon sitting down with friends at lunch they were all busy doing a cross word. Something so small actually made my lunch. It gave us all something to talk about and more importantly to me it distracted me and before I knew it I had eaten all my lunch!

To most people it's just a crossword...to me it's a big step toward getting better and toward learning little life hacks that help me get through :)

Still doesn't change the fact that I am terrible at them though!