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i had a few ideas today for pix cos it was quieter than it has been for a while, then took this. it looked great on the 2in screen, but is rather less sharp than i thought. oh well. too tired to do owt else. maybe i'll get it right another time.

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how come he doesn't even have the guts to say 'i don't want to talk to you right now' if that's what he feels? the more i think about it the more i think i've been played for a long time. i want the face-to-face chat that was promised because i want to say all this and yeah, see him feel bad about how utterly awful he's made me feel.

once it's out there, it's dealt with, done - we fight and move on is how we've always been. i thought i knew where we were moving to - and i know where i want to be moving to - but the ground keeps shifting under my feet. but i can't let go, can't go forward until it's acknowledged rather than pushed aside.

bah.

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EDIT: unexpected after midnight IM'ing - 30 mins of what's been going on and i calm down. stupid sod closes down to deal, but then doesn't say that's what he needs to do for a while. doesn't mention that he's got a lot to deal with and finding it a bit tough and then gets frustrated at me for trying to get him to talk like a human person but still says nothing! *tch*

he's been dipping in here, apparently - 'uncomfortable', says he; 'i bet', says i (thinking: 'tough! it's how i feel!'). fingers crossed yet again...