Unwanted Activity

Woke at 11.45, had breakfast, lay on sofa and slept until 1.30pm. Forced myself to have a shower and get dressed. All the while feeling the anxiety. Heart racing, shaking and not wanting to sit still.

Made a quick trip to the supermarket then back home and into pj's. At one point of not being able to sit still I walked up and down my stairs several times; I noticed this light coming from a neighbours front door.

As I sit shaking, and in tears I don't know what the night holds. I have self harmed but I still have all this excess energy in me and I don't know what to do with it.