...........girls,girls,girls...........

I've felt twitchy all day.

For a few weeks the girlies at work have been cajoling me to go along for a coffee in the local hotel after work is finished on Friday afternoon. I was due to go a couple of weeks ago...but the knee was playing up...........so I decided to give it a miss.

Truth be told I wasn't ready to face anyone.....in fact I was scared that I would break down......lose it big style.......destroy my rep, I suppose........silly really, but there it was.

Jo texted me this week...........then so did Lisa........and then hebs messaged me............so I  said I'd be there.

Didn't sleep much last night, managed just under 5 hours....but I went to bed at 11.00 and got up at 7.00.......so my 5 hours was broken into periods over just over 90 minutes......with hour long breaks in between.

Didn't feel good when I got up.......nervous all day...........kept imagining aches and pains...but in the end I went............and it was really good........I think I've been missing some female company/perspective since the funeral.............the boys have been good, but in a different way than the girls this afternoon........I've seen baby pictures.............inquired about a pregnancy..........talked about cooking......been hugged..........kissed......asked to organise a club.......asked to come back to work!..........and given another cheque for the Hospice!

So thank you hebs, Jo, Lisa, Nat, Vanessa, Michelle, Helen and Michelle.......and Chris, it was good to have another bloke to back me up....and yes I will be back next Thursday when you finish for half term.......but not every week........I know it's a girlie afternoon.......and I'm definitely not a girlie.

Love you all.

Das vidanya moy padruga.

The pin badge is the latest emblem for the Hospice..........