Defeat
How sad that admitting to myself that I am not physically able to function has been made really difficult...BY ME! Not wanting to let students or colleagues down, I have been my own worst enemy. My day confined to bed yesterday has pretty much proved that to me.
However, emerging from darkness, I see the light and the error of my misplaced sense of guilt. I am quick to tell others that they must put themselves first. Time I did the same until this forthcoming surgery provides some enlightenment about how bad things are and hopefully leads to me seeing some improvement. I can cope with many things, but being in this much pain, it is one thing I can't function with.
There is a plan. I feel better for knowing that this is the case.
So not really defeat. Realism? Common sense prevailing above all else? (Unlikely, before Kaybee laughs!) Realising that I am not indispensable and accepting it. Yeah, I think that's it.
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