My Shadow

This was not going to be my blip, I had chosen a nice shot of Harley bounding through the crops on our walk, however events this evening mean that I feel this should be pride of place.

This is the picture I want to have in my head as I try and fall asleep tonight, Emmy smiling, happy, enjoying the sunshine in the pub garden during a beer pitstop halfway through our walk.
Tonight is so far away from this image taken only a few hours ago. Emmy is very poorly, a call to the emergency vet, gastric torsion, emergency surgery and now my shadow is no longer lying next to me as I try to sleep.

I hope I have made the right call, it is so hard making such an important decision in a split second, operate or loose her. After all she has been through, just recovering from cancer, I hope I have not asked her to fight one battle too many, I would never forgive myself. The decision was selfish, purely as I am not ready to say goodbye to the large Emmy shaped part of me, not tonight.

The surgery has gone well but sadly with this condition it's only the first step of a long up hill battle. She's a tough cookie, but she's an old tough cookie now with two lots of major surgery only months apart.

Keep fighting my beautiful, slobbery, hairy mess of a dog, I need my shadow back.