....not the best...........

I have been in a deep, dark place today.............I don't know if it was the shock of the EU vote...........or of seeing friends turn on each other on social media.............but I had a terrible night.....went to bed a little after midnight............came down stairs about 8.30.........in the 8 hours I managed about 2 1/2 hours sleep..............not good sleep............nightmares...........about Helen's final hours.............about the future for my children and grandchildren...........about becoming totally immobile.

My left side has refused to function properly............all day.........an hour to unpack and put away the shopping delivery..............10 minutes to shuffle the 10m or so to the recycling bin.............no appetite............a constant pain in the shoulder joint.

I have wept tears of frustration..........tears of rage........tears of sadness.......I have been snappy with my children........even to the point of refusing to visit for tea........I have screamed at the cats for knocking a food bowl out of my hand............

But.......fortunately my family have rescued me...by insisting I  came to tea ......and coming to collect me......by helping me walk........by smiling............and by giving me the subject of tonight's blip. I have a portrait of Charlotte as a toddler......shot by the ever wonderful Hebs..but not one of Hannah.....until now..............Hannah gave me this herself when I arrived at the Daughters....it is so her.

I'm still in a dark place but....I know that my son, my daughter, my daughter in law and my two grand daughters will not let me stay in that dark place........neither will the rest of my family...........neither will my friends......so I still have reasons to be cheerful.

Das vidanya moy padruga.