Autumn

The day started at 4.30am then I fell asleep at 6.20 until 9.30am.
Went out for a walk but didn't want to be there.
Came home via the supermarket forgetting about half a dozen things.

Home to put back on my pj's and lie on the sofa. I grew agitated, struggling to breathe, I self harmed several times, cried for what seemed like hours then eventually fell asleep.
Tonight it's not much better and am panicking at  the thought that there are many more days to come.