it's been a strange time.....feels a bit like being in nomans land or so......an inbetween time....

when i came today Stuart was deep asleep for a long time....he became more and more restless....and i was amazed how alert and with it he became....he even was alert enough to notice the sky getting dark and to hear the wind lashing the rain against the window...... i sang to him.....read to him......

it is so difficult to go home when he is like that cos i know he would love to come home....