Tatting lace Christmas

Every Christmas, I want to make this tatting lace motif to my friends.

Thinking about the old friend, I make it. My daughter died about 10 years ago and my intimate friend passed away about 3 years ago, when she was 32 years old. They passed away inspite of their will to live more.

I am blessed to live now, but do I live now in a real meaning? What I have done and what I have left as the person who did not die?